Being Blonde and Moving On

I am wearing a blonde wig today! For those of you who are wondering why I'm wearing a wig, it is because I have an obsessive ompulsive disorder called trichotillomania. It is where you pull out your hair from anywhere on your body. For me personally, it is the hair on my head and my eyebrows. It is difficult at times, but I am managing it pretty well i have to say. Anyways, being blonde is quite fun I have to admit. Maybe the people who say blondes have more fun really are telling the truth...Ifelt very energetic today for no apparent reason, and my sources tell me it was all the blonde wig's doing. :P

Anyways, I wanted to just write a little bit about how I am trying to move on from this certain kid. If someone happens to come accross this and it helps them as well, my job here has been done. I know it has really only been one day since I found out what was really going on, but for me it has technically been a week since I had gotten that darn text. Let me tell you, it has been a struggle. I haven't known this kid for a long time, but good God did he have me wrapped around his little finger...I honestly don't fall for every guy I see, or every guy who likes me back, so this is all new to me. I'm not saying that I think I love him, because that would be a total lie. I'm not stupid people, I know what love is and this ain't it. You could probably go so far to say that I fell for him a bit, cracked my head open just slightly, and bruised a knee on the way down...that would be much closer to the truth. Seriously, when a boy tells you over and over how he thinks you are gorgeous, beautiful, and stunning, and then that he gets incredibly nervous when he is around you or talks to you...you kind of get taken with him, do you not? He nicknamed Bella for crying out loud! You can't possibly look me straight in the eyes and tell me that that wouldn't make your heart skip a beat. This whole situation kid is driving me mad. I don't know whether to believe that these things were the truth, still are the truth, or if this is how he is. Maybe he just enjoys sweeping girls away with his charms...lousy, no-good boys! I would'nt dare dream do that to some one else. It's just plain cruel. I feel like a madwomen honestly, and it frightens me a bit. I want to go up and scream at him and kick him in the shins, but I'm afraid once I actually see him in person i'll just end up melting into a big gloppypuddle at his feet. What does that say about me? Better yet, what does that say about the power of crushes in general? Feelings are dumb. No, feelings are dumber than dumb...they're the dumbest! Boys are right along with them! I don't think that guys realize how much power they can hold over a girl, or how much they can simply affect them when they speak these things. It makes one question the world when a guy acts like a total tool. Wouldn't you agree, fine reader(s)? Oh my, I almost forgot that I was trying to help people by saying what has been helping me to move on...Now let's see...Well if you were thinking stalk his facebook page for info, cross that right off your list. I'm not saying that I stalk his page, but that just popped into my head. Hey, I don't know you guys...maybe you do that kind of stuff. Oh one good thing to do is to erase any text messages between you two. I know that I have been caght rereading certain sweet texts, but that is bad people! It only crushes you more, frankly. Trust me on that one. It kills me to read all of the weet things that he said to me, and then to think that he possibly didn't mean a word. In all honesty, that's really all I have got so far. Although, I don't advise moving on to liking another huy right away because tht would be horrible for both you and the new interest. You would most likely just end up breaking that boy's heart.

Well, that's pretty much all I have to say today. I am a little overwhelmed by it all, but I know that it takes time for some things to pass, and I am not the only girl out there who is feeling like this. Maybe not the only girl who has been left crushed by this one guy either...All I have to say to that is boys are dumb.

 

Men are stupid. If you forget, they will remind you.