C is for Confusion

Have you ever had so many different thoughts processing in your mind that you feel like your brain is going to explode?  That's how I feel at the moment. Everything is all jumbled up there...It's like a puzzle and I only have a certain amount of time to fit the pieces together, but some pieces are missing and some go to a totally different puzzle. God knows I'm trying my hardest, but nothing seems to work. That beautiful boy I have been mentioning, messaged me back saying that he doesn't have a thing with anybody. Oh greeeaaat. I don't know whether I'm falling into a trap here, but I want to believe him. I want to believe that he would tell me the straight up truth...He said before he would never lie to me, and God was he convincing. Darn the effect this guy has on me...I can barely form thoughts without him sneaking inside. Shoo boy, shoo! I know it was a close friend that told me he was seeing this other girl, but she did say that she only had heard it, and to confront him. It most likely is a rumor, but there still is that chance it is fact. Draamaaaa! Here's a small fact about myself, I have been home schooled since my junior year (for health issues), and this would be my senior year. I thought that being out of high school would mean being taken out of drama. Apparently not! Drama is like a contagious disease and if you are a teenager  who hangs with other teens you most likely will catch it.

-Insert heavy sigh here-

The right thing for me to do is just to be friends like he wants. If something more comes of the relationship, then cool. If something doesn't, well that's life for ya. Maybe that's what we both need, a friend to get close to. Anyways we are only seventeen, and love doesn't look upon young people with great favor. It usually likes to start wars and run, a trail of carnage, destruction, and broken hearts left in its path. Plus, we can be dumb and act upon our gut feelings and stupid thoughts that tell us we know everything life's about. Who knows what will happen between us, but God? I know I certainly can't tell the future...Although, that would be pretty nifty. :P

God has a plan for me, and He already knows the life I will lead, same for you as well! I'm just going to try my hardest to be my best and do the right thing. I don't want to get in His way, and screw up what may be coming soon.

P.s. Shout out to my first follower! Woohoo! :D

 

“Sometimes I'm confused by what I think is really obvious. But what I think is really obvious obviously isn't obvious...”